What are you fighting with yourself about today?
•Your life is the complete opposite of what you expected or hoped it would be.
•You’re crying right now. Your eyes are swollen and it’s almost as if everything is falling apart AND to top it off, you’re not eating and you’re losing weight. Your skin is breaking out too.
•You’re not working. You have stuff to take care of but it’s hard for you to find a job right now OR you are working, but your expenses eats all your money away.
•You’re making up excuses as to why you can’t get things done and procrastination is at its peak right now.
•School isn’t going good for you. Your fees are due. Your grades are extremely poor and even though you’re trying to get them to be where you need them to be in effort to graduate; you just can’t seem to get it right.
•You haven’t made any real friends, you’re socially awkward and it’s hard for you to fit in.
•You’re complaining because others are way ahead of you and it’s like you are stuck in the same day each and every day; You’re asking why is it that you’re working so hard, yet you are far behind; You’re asking why life is so cruel to you; better yet, why God is so unfair to you because nothing is going right for you, but everything seems to work as a fortune to others.
•You’re comparing your self to those around you; Wanting to wear a little more make up to feel more beautiful (stop that because in the end material things won’t do anything for you)
•You’re questioning whether you are indeed beautiful enough, talented enough, ambitious enough, tall enough, short enough, slender enough or thick enough.
MISSING the true concept of loving yourself, so instead, you search for that in other people to give your self a lot of validations from them.
•You’re either trying to change yourself for better or for worse or someone is trying to change you into their idea and perception of you.
•A relationship or friendship is crumbling right before your eyes and it seems as if there is nothing you can do about it OR the person you love or want to be with, doesn’t love you back neither do they want to be with you OR you’re stuck pining over someone you so desperately want to get over OR you’re stuck on someone you know is toxic for you but something about that wrong love feels so right. OR the person you’re with whom you love is miles away from you.
•You’re having issues with your parents; they won’t accept you nor the decisions you make for yourself OR you’re the complete opposite of what you portray yourself to be to and for them for the sake of not being judged.
•I bet someone is talking bad about you as we speak and you want to defend yourself so bad.
Someone who is suppose to be your friend; who is supposed to be supporting you, prefers to support strangers before they can even think to uplift you then smile in your face wanting to hear your business.
•you’re hurting yourself. Using razor blades to kiss the lips of your skin to taste the red lipstick because in reality, human connection isn’t of use the way a razor blade satisfies your desires.
(2 yrs free of a razor’s kiss and counting)🌹
•You see death up close and personal sometimes; you exchange conversations with him/her; negotiating your place on this earth OR death came creeping in way too early taking someone you love dearly this year, last year and years before that. (RIP G’ma 9.10.14 🕊🧡)
•Feeling pressured to conform to society’s values and norms 🤦🏾♀️ In my opinion. 🤬 🖕🏽society 🚷
✔️But hey, That’s all fine. I get it.
You’re struggling. I know and that’s perfectly fine.
Someone who happens to be one of the biggest lights in my life told me , “do what you can; uplift yourself in the best way that you can and never tear yourself down; find what works for you and be you because i love you for you. everything takes time and everything will work itself out.”
And that’s exactly what i’ll tell you because we all go through it. I went through it and i am still going through it.
Time waits on no one and Life isn’t waiting on you so you better not wait on it nor it’s best friend to start acting right.
Get going and keep it moving. Even when you fall; even when you break down and cry and feel like you just can’t be here anymore… I get it. We’re not perfect.
(because i feel that way sometimes too) and this shit is hard 😓
BUT simply remember to do what you CAN & only what you CAN because that’s all that matters. ✌🏾
“9. In their hearts humans plan their course, but the Lord establishes their steps.”
ps. to the loml, i love you. Your lifted words speak volumes every-time. Thank you for inspiring me to write this for someone else – (MW) 🧡